NTM

Really?  Have we been here a month already?  In some ways it seems way longer, as we’ve been so busy since the day we came.  In other ways it seems like we were just packing to leave.

The busy schedule has been good I think.  It has kept us preoccupied which helps to distract and dull the sadness of leaving family, friends, and everything familiar.  Right now Caleb is off at a meeting so I’m here alone with Daniel.  He is tucked away in bed, all my chores are done, so I decided to treat myself to a song on itunes.  Knowing that my emotions are raw just below the surface should have prompted me to buy a happy, upbeat song.  But no.  I went for a melancholy one about leaving someone you love.  You know the one by Peter, Paul & Mary, “Leavin on a Jet Plane”?  Well, many of the words hit just a little too close to home.  I played that thing over and over and just sat on the floor crying.  Pitiful, right?  I guess it’s good to finally have time to process.

It is times like that when I ask the Lord to remind me why we are here.  He is gentle and faithful to do so.  After I had my good cry and turned that song off, I remembered that it is indeed a privilege to serve God in this way.  Thank you Lord for the renewed strength and prospective.  Just the same, I think I’ll steer clear of that song for awhile!